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stealsyourteaGah, I keep forgetting to update. B| Bad me.
Anyways, nothing much really happened this week. I was planning to go out today, but the humidity was stifling. I could barely breath. Hence, I decided to not go out today. I have plans to go to Manhattan to find a place that sells loose tea. (I have a lot of loose tea, Most of them are from Adaigo.)
Also, I found out there is something that does cheer my up from overstress cry. What was it? Technicolor ponies singing. Yeah, I enjoy occasional watching Friendship is Magic, but my favorite part of the episodes are the songs. I found that most of the happier songs cheer me up. Well, none of Pinkie Pie's song cheer me up other than one. Weird. Still, the music is probably my favorite part of the show. Also, something about technicolor ponies singing makes my inner child giggle.
On Thursday, I managed to get my Mom an 8" cake from the Chinese Bakery that she likes. Then, I picked up her medicine and went home. I did a fake out. I brought her a tiramisu for her to eat. Then, about a half an hour later, I brought out the cake. My grandparents, her aide and I sang Happy Birthday. Then she blew out her candles. I brought out the Fred Astaire and Ginger Roger's DVD that I got for here. She loved it. I don't know why but I told her sorry that her cake was so small and her present was small. I know she doesn't mind since I went to the trouble to hunt down her favorite actors/dancers. Also, I bought her a cake. She was happy. Since she can't drink due to all her medication, I drank for her. I found a place that was selling "sweet" sake. Not really that sweet. It was okay. Yeah, still trying to find a wine/drink that is sweet. (Apart from white Zinfandel and a Belgian beer) I'm not a fan of alcohol. B|
The strangest thing happened. On the night I had a whole fit of melancholy, Samantha IMed me. I haven't talk to her in age after David and I decided to stop with this toxic friendship. Suddenly, I get this IM from her that says 'GURL, I've been trying to reach you! But you never answer your phone!' Which is frankly BS. I ALWAYS keep my phone on me. I never leave the house without it. I regularly check my when I go out and make sure that it's fully charged. It was an awkward conversation. I kept it short. Also, we talked today. She asked if I was mad at her. I told her no. I told that I'm not sure I can keep talking to her anymore b/c we drifted apart and have very little in common anymore. I was about to tell maybe it if it was better off that we no longer we be friends. Then this:
(7:47:35 PM) Her: well it doesn't always have to be things we both like
(7:47:51 PM) Her: i mean if we liked everything that's the same
(7:48:06 PM) Her: why not just be friends with ur reflection?
(7:48:12 PM) Her: so just talk
(7:48:27 PM) Her : conversations will flow
(7:48:31 PM) Her: if we want it to
I just couldn't talk to her after that. Maybe it's my imagination, that that sounding pretty condescending when I was trying to address the problem WHY we couldn't be friend. I just couldn't speak to her afterwards. THe main problems was that all we coudl talk about was fannish things. She got bored if we stayed in one place. We had to always be doing something. Sitting down and just talking was never good enough, THe conversation always ended up about fanfics and the novel she was going to write. Again, I don't mind occasionally talking about it. But when this happened every time and I had to be her sounding board. And, maybe this is just being me, she always made the storyline like your typical gary stuish BL story/fanfic. Super angtsy and stuff. (No parents/ orphaned treated bad etc.)
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Anyways, when I tried to talk more about this communication problem we had. She switched topics to. 8DDDD I got Animal Crossing! Let's forget this serious discussion and plaaaay! I just stopped talking then. Next time, I will just tell her,'I think we grew apart and we can't be friends. I'm sorry but that is the way I feel.'
IDK, it's that a good idea or not. I'd talk to David, but he still holds hope that she'll change. (He fell HARD for her. They dated for like a month and it didn't end well. They made up ONLY b/c David said sorry. She didn't say, 'Sorry, I said terrible things to you. I was out of line'. Nope, I guess. I don't need/want to deal with her anymore. Gah. I've no idea what to do. I can't go to my mom b/c the I told you so thing. None my other friends know her, so no help there. Honestly, I just want to cut off the friendship. That's it. Now, I'm wondering if I'm being too harsh or not. IDK, what do you guys think since you have the outside perspective?
Am I right to tell her we can't be friend or do I give her a chance. Sorry for the angtsy post.
As a sorry, here's a picture of my villager in Animal Crossing: New Leaf!
Are you my Mummy? (Also, if anyone has the game, I'll happily exchange FC with you. )
Also, more positions opened in Target! Gonna try again! 83b
Anyways, nothing much really happened this week. I was planning to go out today, but the humidity was stifling. I could barely breath. Hence, I decided to not go out today. I have plans to go to Manhattan to find a place that sells loose tea. (I have a lot of loose tea, Most of them are from Adaigo.)
Also, I found out there is something that does cheer my up from overstress cry. What was it? Technicolor ponies singing. Yeah, I enjoy occasional watching Friendship is Magic, but my favorite part of the episodes are the songs. I found that most of the happier songs cheer me up. Well, none of Pinkie Pie's song cheer me up other than one. Weird. Still, the music is probably my favorite part of the show. Also, something about technicolor ponies singing makes my inner child giggle.
On Thursday, I managed to get my Mom an 8" cake from the Chinese Bakery that she likes. Then, I picked up her medicine and went home. I did a fake out. I brought her a tiramisu for her to eat. Then, about a half an hour later, I brought out the cake. My grandparents, her aide and I sang Happy Birthday. Then she blew out her candles. I brought out the Fred Astaire and Ginger Roger's DVD that I got for here. She loved it. I don't know why but I told her sorry that her cake was so small and her present was small. I know she doesn't mind since I went to the trouble to hunt down her favorite actors/dancers. Also, I bought her a cake. She was happy. Since she can't drink due to all her medication, I drank for her. I found a place that was selling "sweet" sake. Not really that sweet. It was okay. Yeah, still trying to find a wine/drink that is sweet. (Apart from white Zinfandel and a Belgian beer) I'm not a fan of alcohol. B|
The strangest thing happened. On the night I had a whole fit of melancholy, Samantha IMed me. I haven't talk to her in age after David and I decided to stop with this toxic friendship. Suddenly, I get this IM from her that says 'GURL, I've been trying to reach you! But you never answer your phone!' Which is frankly BS. I ALWAYS keep my phone on me. I never leave the house without it. I regularly check my when I go out and make sure that it's fully charged. It was an awkward conversation. I kept it short. Also, we talked today. She asked if I was mad at her. I told her no. I told that I'm not sure I can keep talking to her anymore b/c we drifted apart and have very little in common anymore. I was about to tell maybe it if it was better off that we no longer we be friends. Then this:
(7:47:35 PM) Her: well it doesn't always have to be things we both like
(7:47:51 PM) Her: i mean if we liked everything that's the same
(7:48:06 PM) Her: why not just be friends with ur reflection?
(7:48:12 PM) Her: so just talk
(7:48:27 PM) Her : conversations will flow
(7:48:31 PM) Her: if we want it to
I just couldn't talk to her after that. Maybe it's my imagination, that that sounding pretty condescending when I was trying to address the problem WHY we couldn't be friend. I just couldn't speak to her afterwards. THe main problems was that all we coudl talk about was fannish things. She got bored if we stayed in one place. We had to always be doing something. Sitting down and just talking was never good enough, THe conversation always ended up about fanfics and the novel she was going to write. Again, I don't mind occasionally talking about it. But when this happened every time and I had to be her sounding board. And, maybe this is just being me, she always made the storyline like your typical gary stuish BL story/fanfic. Super angtsy and stuff. (No parents/ orphaned treated bad etc.)
,
Anyways, when I tried to talk more about this communication problem we had. She switched topics to. 8DDDD I got Animal Crossing! Let's forget this serious discussion and plaaaay! I just stopped talking then. Next time, I will just tell her,'I think we grew apart and we can't be friends. I'm sorry but that is the way I feel.'
IDK, it's that a good idea or not. I'd talk to David, but he still holds hope that she'll change. (He fell HARD for her. They dated for like a month and it didn't end well. They made up ONLY b/c David said sorry. She didn't say, 'Sorry, I said terrible things to you. I was out of line'. Nope, I guess. I don't need/want to deal with her anymore. Gah. I've no idea what to do. I can't go to my mom b/c the I told you so thing. None my other friends know her, so no help there. Honestly, I just want to cut off the friendship. That's it. Now, I'm wondering if I'm being too harsh or not. IDK, what do you guys think since you have the outside perspective?
Am I right to tell her we can't be friend or do I give her a chance. Sorry for the angtsy post.
As a sorry, here's a picture of my villager in Animal Crossing: New Leaf!
Are you my Mummy? (Also, if anyone has the game, I'll happily exchange FC with you. )
Also, more positions opened in Target! Gonna try again! 83b
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Date: 2013-06-24 10:10 am (UTC)It's always a red flag if someone can't apologise for or own up to their mistakes. It's an even bigger red flag when they lie. It's easy to tell these days if someone has tried to call you or not. Your response sounds like a good one. If you don't want to be friends with someone, then you don't have to be friends with them.
Aw, that sounds like a lovely birthday! How kind of you to try and find something your mother would like. I agree with her completely - it's not the size of the present but the thought that went into it.
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Date: 2013-06-24 09:01 pm (UTC)I'm not a fan of alcohol. B|
Aw, I'm sorry. Although, have you tried some of the fruity flavored beers? I'd say those are pretty good.
I'm confused with that story about with this kinda-sorta friend of yours. I think it's kind of funny how she asked if your mad at her then sort of demands that you talk to her. Very weird...
Anyways, I love the gas mask on your villager XD I'm jealous; I wish I had New Leaf :)
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Date: 2013-06-26 07:20 am (UTC)Yeah, my history with this friend is long and confusing into myself.f about everything. Your friendship has always been that way I guess? I'm not even sure myself on this point. Which isn't a good sign when I start to question mysel
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Date: 2013-06-25 02:03 am (UTC)no subject
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